Please, don't fall in love with me

I guess they call me Muirabella and I take up to much space. I'm irrelevant, unimportant and useless . I'm Trapped in Wonderland and I want to leave. I don't know why everyone falls in love with me, I'm nothing special. I am a depressed teenager with anxiety problems just trying to stay alive. I suffer from anorexia and self-harm but I'm trying. This is a part of my recovery.

if you hate me, don't worry. I hate me too. if you know me from school, you never saw this.